by Valentina Pollard of Just Breathe…
My baby girls garner quite a bit of attention when we are out and about. There is definitely something about a double stroller, or one baby on each hip, that draws people to you. Often, along with sweet ohhs and ahhs, we also receive comments like “I bet you have your hands full!” and “You’re so lucky – 2 in 1 and you’re done!”
My hands are incredibly full.
And, I am extremely lucky.
But.
Am I done?
Part of me (err: ALL of me) wants more.
B.A.B.I.E.S.
Just one…
…or two…more.
I vacillate between feeling incredibly guilty for being so greedy as to want more babies (when I was so blessed to have two perfectly healthy ones) and picking out names for our as-of-yet-unborn additional babies.
And the names are gorgeous.
If we never have another child, I will continue to be the happiest mother in the world. But, I (not so secretly) hope we do. I look at Daphne and Poppy and know that they would be such wonderful big sisters to a little girl (could I be so lucky as to have 3 beautiful blooms?) or to an adorable little boy (oh goodness, a little mud covered, mischievous boy…how divine!).
When we were trying to get pregnant, I promised (in my countless, pleading prayers) that I’d never beg for another baby if I could just have one healthy pregnancy and a baby (or two!). Yet here I am, less than a year into motherhood, wanting more. I am not begging (and not trying, either, for those of you wondering)…but I am definitely wanting.
This longing leaves me thinking: Instead of a pre-baby vacation, I think babymoon should be a term used to describe the honeymoon period of parenthood when you feel like you finally have a handle on your day – when your babies are healthy and growing, and you find yourself humming along merrily-merrily-merrily-life-is-but-a-dream…Because, after all, this might just be a phase.
Although I hope not!
I’m curious: Were you bitten by the baby bug again soon after having your first (or first pair)? Do you think I am crazy (and it is okay to say yes…just this once) for daydreaming about being even more outnumbered than I am already? And, for those of you who have felt the same way I do, any tips on brainwashing your husband into thinking it is a great, fabulous and wonderful idea??? Anyone?

How could I not want more?
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Valentina Vassallo Pollard started …just breathe… in May 2010 when, after many months, she found herself still holding her breath in hopes of a positive pregnancy test. After a year and a half long journey through the trenches of infertility, she is now living her very own happy ending beginning – a successful first round of IVF resulting in a healthy pregnancy with twin girls. Valentina is busy adjusting to the wonderful world of mommyhood with the arrival of her girls. She is passionate about spreading the word about infertility treatments and the options available to families. She writes about her experiences, hopes, dreams and shopping binges (now mostly baby related) on her blog – www.just-breathe-blog.blogspot.com. Valentina lives in Austin, Texas with her very handsome (and patient) husband, Blake and her twin girls.